it's so lonely at night.... even the stars don't blink much anymore..

you're so near, yet so far...

have I been a good boyfriend?...

I guess I tried my best...

I did...




Dear God, do you want me to be with Alvin? :


I was staring at a dewy, forsaken web. It looked so broken, nothing could ever, ever make it a home.
I challenged God and asked for something almost impossible to happen. I asked for life in that web.

I asked God for a sign.
Immediately, a little spider suddenly jumped up and startled me till I fell flat on my butt on the ground.


I asked God for a sign again.
Immediately, a larger, lighter brown spider jumped up and bit the little spider. The spider struggled then broke its leg and ran away.

I asked God for one last sign.
I closed my eyes... and when I opened, the web was empty again. There was nothing left.





I challenged Him to give me an answer.

He gave me an answer.

It was no coincidence.

But now my heart feels more pain then ever before...



.. I wished I never asked...